It's true, I am not the size I was in high school. And while most people will tell you it's unrealistic to think you could go back to that size because you are a grown woman and things change, I refuse to believe it.
While I am only one size bigger than I was four years ago, to me I feel like I'm more like 10 sizes bigger and about 1,000 pounds heavier. It is something I am having to work on spiritually and in every other way. I got on the scale earlier this week to see I had gained a pound and had a FULL melt down...
Left is now. Right is Senior year of High School.
SO, why would I be working on this spiritually you ask? I am created in the Lord's image, he knitted me together in my mothers womb and made me exactly how I am for a reason.
Psalm 45:11 says,
"The King is enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your Lord."
For me to be as critical about my body as I am, I am not honoring the Lord, and criticizing how the Lord made me. Now that isn't to say that I should let myself go and not worry about how I look because the Lord also says I should treat my body as a temple.
1 Corinthians 6:19 says,
"Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own..."
So as I am on this journey of becoming the best version of myself, it is a constant battle to stay positive and not be overly critical of the body I am in.
If you are dieting yourself, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Keep on keeping on, WE CAN DO THIS!
This is so true. I feel most women have a hard time with this subject. We are always wanting be skinner, darker, have longer hair, straighter teeth, etc. However, you hit it right on the nail. It isn't realistic to be a VS model. I've had to basically train myself to one, not compare, two, accept my body and three, do whatever it takes for my body to be healthy. Furthermore, the healthier I am physically I can be mentally and emotionally have a healthier environment and well-being. You are perfect and beautiful. Do you know people would kill for those blonde Goldie locks?
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